Hello Again

Hello everyone.. haven't been around lately, but I guess its time to start blogging again...Kicking & Singing & her hubby are moving to the US. I know I haven't seen her in two years in Sept. & its going to be at least another year.

I wasn't able to travel to see them get married because I had a heart attach, but bless her hubbys heart for setting up a live stream...

OH WELL!!

Sometimes things don't go the way you want them too, and thats what happened.. But I'll keep trying ..

HERE I GO AGAIN!

Well today I took the first step to quit smoking! I've tried many times over the years , but I have to do it..
So if I seem a little hateful at times.. Please know its not you, its me!

MY JOURNEY!!!

Well I started back to work as you all know.. I was really nervous, but determine to do this. I had to prove something to myself, and I guess in a way I have....



So your wondering, where was this journey to, that I'm talking about..

Where did I go.. Well not far, but along ways..lol I know that sounds really stupid, but its the truth.. This journey is one trip, that I wish I didn't have to take, but I guess I have too.. and I still don't know when it will end...

But on this journey, I found out things about myself, and I've changed a lot in the way that I think... I have found in me, even more love for my family, which seems impossible, but its true.

I have learned to forgive people, that have hurt me over the years,because life is to short to spend it with hate,and resentment in my heart... Hating and resentment, are things best left, behind us...I have even forgiven my ex-son in law, and for you that know me, that took a lot!! But when this journey began, all I could think of in my state of mind , was I don't want to die, with hate in my heart.

I know this looks like some kind of bug, but it's what helped to save my life .. It is called a drug-eluding stent,and I now have 5 of these, in my heart... I'm on 7 different pills a day, one of which is a blood thinner, and I bruise like crazy,and all my arteries are blocking off. I have a real hard time walking ,because of the lack of blood flow to my legs..My doctors have told me I could have a stroke, and I could end up loosing my legs.When I was told all of this stuff, I was so scared,and depressed, but now I look at it as just one more part of the journey .. and for better or worse, its my journey..
YOU KNOW, I WOULD RATHER HAVE GONE ON A TRAIN RIDE ACROSS CANADA!!! OH WELL !!!!!! :O)

THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN!!!

Yup its that time of year again.. Time to get out my rubber boots,splash pants, and jacket.This time of year can be very cold in the plant,so I have to make sure I have my winter gloves to wear under my rubber ones..Heavy sweaters are a must, and I make sure I always have dry clothes in the truck, just in case....

I'm really looking forward to going back to work,I do every year... But this year I'm a litte afraid, that my old body won't be able to take it, so I guess I'll just have to do the best I can...

I Miss You All !!!

Hi remember me? Yup I'm back.. I've tried that facebook thing, but don't really enjoy it... I miss my blog family...I miss hearing whats been going on in there lives..

I miss the rants,the funny bits of daily life,and the not so funny...

So if your still out there give me a shout.. I miss you all..

OK K&S Just For You!!!

Well we started back to work,and I got 40 some odd hours in 4 days.Boy do I feel old!!!We worked 14 hours one day,and by the time I got home, I couldn't lift my leg over the side of the tub,to take a shower(LOL),now you know that can't be good!!!

But like I told K&S the other night,when I start to feel like I can't do anymore I think of her and Pat,coming home at Christmas,and it just gives me the boost I need..

I'm working to try and make this house something, she can be proud to bring him home too..I want this Christmas to be even more special then it usually is... I even bought a big tree from a friend who moved out West.

This one looks real,and it is huge.. She told me it took her most of a afternoon to get it together,so I'll have my work cut out for me..

Oh I did something for myself,I joined Pogo, and both Dan and I are loving it.. For those of you who don't know what it is, its a gaming site,and lots of fun..

Well my friends thats all for now.. Hope your all well. And will try and post more often..