MY JOURNEY!!!

Well I started back to work as you all know.. I was really nervous, but determine to do this. I had to prove something to myself, and I guess in a way I have....



So your wondering, where was this journey to, that I'm talking about..

Where did I go.. Well not far, but along ways..lol I know that sounds really stupid, but its the truth.. This journey is one trip, that I wish I didn't have to take, but I guess I have too.. and I still don't know when it will end...

But on this journey, I found out things about myself, and I've changed a lot in the way that I think... I have found in me, even more love for my family, which seems impossible, but its true.

I have learned to forgive people, that have hurt me over the years,because life is to short to spend it with hate,and resentment in my heart... Hating and resentment, are things best left, behind us...I have even forgiven my ex-son in law, and for you that know me, that took a lot!! But when this journey began, all I could think of in my state of mind , was I don't want to die, with hate in my heart.

I know this looks like some kind of bug, but it's what helped to save my life .. It is called a drug-eluding stent,and I now have 5 of these, in my heart... I'm on 7 different pills a day, one of which is a blood thinner, and I bruise like crazy,and all my arteries are blocking off. I have a real hard time walking ,because of the lack of blood flow to my legs..My doctors have told me I could have a stroke, and I could end up loosing my legs.When I was told all of this stuff, I was so scared,and depressed, but now I look at it as just one more part of the journey .. and for better or worse, its my journey..
YOU KNOW, I WOULD RATHER HAVE GONE ON A TRAIN RIDE ACROSS CANADA!!! OH WELL !!!!!! :O)